gloomy day

i kinda feel bad today :(

i dnt knw what is happening to me..

i am hating this feeling..

:(

i have no issue with anyone but i feel sumthn is heavy in my heart...

i hate feeling this :(

please Dear God let it go away :(

guess its better to do what this lady did before.. should i decide to just let go? and just enjoy the ride?! please pretty please give me answers to my questions.. :( sheeesh

disappointed...

nothin more to say but this...

nakakadismaya.. grrr...

kebs! deads!

balik ako sa level whatever...

😡

when did u start liking me?! 

u answered after the kiss?!?

duhhh!

anu yun?! 

hahaha

oh well.. 

i get it now hahaha

shyet malandi

at nagpalandi ka naman agad agad kasi

hmp ka tlga maling!!

paasa ka pa? eh ikaw nga umasa na like ka nya pero it started pala with the kiss..

lumevel up ka pa without waiting for december.. you said ur taking it slow pero mukang ikaw napadali sa level up hahahaha you are pathetic maling!!! 

eeewww ka!!

anyway will go back to reality...

dnt overwhelm yerself with delusions..

hihi

yeah yeah im comin back to my senses!

will try to go back real quick!

anyway go get some sleep! :) 

umasa ka noh? hahaha

sheeeesh i dnt get it actually..

why??? why dear God haha

kebs!

nytnyt my dear blog! hmp

note to self:

so try not to... okie?! 

okie????!! hehehe okay!

i knw yer a smart girl...

you will get it sooner than later..

hihi

you love me?! i love me too... ❤️❤️❤️

you love me? yeee...

i love me too hahaha charot!!

aysusss ginoo...

ndi ko na tlga alam what to say... 

i told you maling to take yer time...

take it slow...

don't hurry... 

madami pa naman panahon  eh....

sana naman dnt make me hurry...

alam ko naman na you know what

i am feeling already eh... will u wait?!

sigurista ka dba?!

so mas normal na mas maging segurista ako... natural mente... babae ako...

mas madaming nawawala sa amin...

and do you ever wonder why tatlo lang

sila?!? because i dnt usually jump in kapag hindi ako sigurado...

anyway i always remind myself to pls pls take some time to assess everything...

to analyze what u really want from me...

and to assess myself if i can make this work...

andami ko naiisip eh...

honestly speaking... i am used to LDR...

if our relationship will be a happy and healthy one... distance will not matter to me... kaso iniisip ko.. if you can make it work inspite of the distance.. if matyaga ka... this will work.. if ur patient enough sa mga crazyness ko this will probably work!! :) ayaw ko magsalita ng tapos but i can be loyal and will never be infidel if this realtionship will be a happy one.. may respeto naman ako sa kapwa ko... ;( i made mistakes from my past.. i knw i am to blame for demanding too much and for not being contented and hence accepted attention from another person.. but i made it right in the end and i resisted it for the longest time.. 

anyway like u told me... 

the important thing is yung future not the past sah?!

anyway i hope and pray na maging sure na sure na ako so u will not wait for too long.. naisip ko kasi i wanted this to work and ayaw ko padaskol daskol... sa totoo

nga prang bf and gf na nga tayo coz i am not like this to any other person na i am not commited with... kulang lang tlga ng label.. jeez... basta please dnt pressure me!! malapit na naman ang december eh... :) i will see you real soon... :) it will be worth it.. just wait!! oks?!! yeee... again i love me too hahaha

now lang ako ulet nagstastart to love myself eh... kapag overflowing na ang love ko sa sarili ko.. that is the time na kaya ko na maglove ng madaming madami sa ibang tao hehehe :) and if God will allow.. malay mo sayo ko ibuhos ang overflowing love from my heart ayieeee!!! :) hahaha

i will love myself first then i will love you too.. pra madaming love ha?!?

just have faith hahaha

mwaaah

lost in space..

errr...

anu na kaya nangyari sayo?! hmm...

u called me around 12pm here but was not able to answer it kasi i was asleep.. actually i am hearing sumone calling but i dnt knw if its you or someone else so i ignored it.. i chose to sleep kasi nga iv work later... but anyway im a little worried now.. coz its 10pm already.. err but maybe u fell asleep.. or maybe u lost ur phone.. or maybe u went sumwer and u drained your battery... just maybe.. errr

oh well... hope ur well and safe... dami kasi masasamang tao sa lansangan na eh :(

will pray na lang na sana yer okay..

grr.. anyway will just try to sleep...

sana yer safe and sana naman msg mko noh if yer safely home or whatever.. errr

dream dream dream...

i don't usually wake up early.. but here i am now.. getting up earlier than usual :( i always dream of something which triggers me to wake up... err... anyway my dream is not that grand.. nothin special actually just a bunch of numbers tho nakalimutan ko na agad.. in my dream was preparing for an exam and someone told me i have to memorize certain values and different formulas... errr but the sad part is i only remember 9 and 11... anything significant abt it?! errr i dnt knw... will nov 9 will be a special day or an unlucky day for me?! errr... anyway doodle some crap on my hands and legs... i knw its not good but what the heck.. errr.. anyway im not in the mood to write.. will probly go get some sleep.. heheh ^^ btw jayson is kinda uhmm nothin... dnt want to comment first...  ;)

will continue writing after my power nap hihi

spoiled cold morning...

ui woke up early this morning...

i am not planning to wake up this early but i got up... i dnt knw why...

maybe coz im too cold... 

or maybe coz my head hurts double hell..

:(

checked my phone and got a message from someone that i really did not expect that will send a message.. just to be polite i replied but i am rude naturally so still it had to be a rude message but still it is polite heheheh ganto ko eh so walang pwede magchange nun!! if im bitchy.. then let me be bitchy.. :)

anyway my morning got spoiled after i opened my eyes... tsk... really my head hurts... but its okay... checked my fb... went to click jayson's name to check if he is already up or whatever.. he was online so i dropped a message.. and he gave lame comments again... na nichecheck ko daw if he is online or not... natural alanganaman magmsg ako ng ndi ko icheck kung online sha or hindi... i kinda got annoyed.. why does he thinks highly of himself... i said ocoyrse im checking if he is online or not... stalker nga eh db?! but duhhh like i care now!!! today i decided wala na ako paki!! bgla ko naiinis :( naiinis ako sa kayabangan nya!!! feeling na sha mashado... :( anyway not in the mood to talk with him today.. mag me day sha today and il do the same... ndi ko na muna sha kausapin ng mabawasan ang pagfifeeling sa buhay... hmpppz... anyway il go get some sleep na lang ulet... sakit tlga ulo ko eh :( tpos nadagdagan pa ng pagkabiset.. haaaay :(

hear these lines while looking from time to time sa picture ko hahaha try to imagine na ganyan face ko while im saying these lines!!! "so feeling mo gwapong gwapo ka na nyan?! and feeling mo im stalking you already?!! grrrr... wag ka mashado feeling!!!! hmp! anyway wala na ulet ako paki sayo.. will try not to care too much.. mukang namimisinterpret eh!! mukang yumayabang ka ng bongga eh... grrr!! babooosh!!! magsaya ka ng whole day without me disturbing you!!"

Hopeless Romantic!?!?!?!!?!

Huwaaaat!!?!?!?!?!?
I'm a hopeless romantic!?!?!?!

I don't think so...
duhhh!!!!??!!?

anyway.... i am not a hopeless romantic...
i am not! grrr

and i will never be!!!

bawal ba magbigay ng letter?!?!
napahiya na naman ako...
:(
tsk,....
birthday  naman nya nun ha!
never na nga ako magbibigay ng letter dun kahit kelan..

and i remember one time i sent him a goodmorning message...
and he told me ay sweet naman pala...
grrr...
kaya naisip ko di na ako maggoodmorning message bwahahhaha..

anyway khalas...
please bring back the bitchy old maling.. hihih

:)