Confused...

i really don't knw what happened?!! why am i becoming like this?! i was trapped... i was slowly falling into the dungeon of whatever... :( i dnt want to get hurt coz of too much expecting again.. i assessed myself nth times but i cnt give clear answer to myself :( its just sad coz he thinks im infidel hehe but what to do?! i knw myself.. and like i always say... values lang maipapagmalaki ko hahaha i knw the importance of honesty... trust and being faithful in a relationship... i am actually faithful to peter before... but demanded for too much and ended up longing for someone who can give it to me... i did all the efforts.. everything... but what the hell... change topic na tayo hehehe

so ano na pala ang lagay ko? hahaha

anong siste?! anong nangyayari?!

actually ndi ko dn alam hahahaha

i did not even know when it started...

he went to my 33rd birthday party hehe

sounds familiar noh? hahah

but we started talking sa mga oras na yun...

and then it progressed to sumthin nice...

we clicked... haha nakuha nia humor ko and honestly speaking ndi sha funny for me hahahah coz his lines and etc are same.. parepareho wlaang update.. hahaha gasgas ba?! hahah but still i enjoyed chatting with him... errr he was trying to mend my heart and i was listening to his rant everytime he remembers tin.. haha... he was sending pictures and i did the same.. papadaig ba naman ang lola mo? hahaha and then nalimutan ko na if which came first nung nagsubway kami or nagluto sha spaghetti here hahah... indenial ako sa mga feelings ko... i was happy so i ended up spending time with him... ndi ako mapampilit na tao.. he was the one insisiting me na punta dito sama dito and etc... we had our memories in a short span of time... isang bwang landian baga hahahah may subway... may sultan escapade hunting for colored pens... may spaghetti cooking show with cookies and cream milkshake hahaha may poker night... may drinking session with beastmode... may attending mass... may stargazing... may amuyan ng anit blues... may bbq and smoking sa kalsada... may spending time together and just being happy and being there together.. may pagtutuyo ng hair hahaha may massage dn... what i hate the most is the farting part.. yung intentionally letting u knw that he farted errr... anu tooo?!?!! errr... nabaliwala ang steps to success ko.. mashado ko nabibilisan.. :( and now im confused... i know and i think he is not eager to pursue this.. and i dnt want  to get too much attached... :( it  is unfair for him that i am thinking like  this.. what if he really is sincere about me? but what if he is not?! do i need to confirm? or do i need to let go? he said he knows his limitation... what are his limits? how will i know if hangganan na pala?! i find it odd coz he is afraid to get hurt and he wants security... but then again he is telling sanay sha masaktan... well maybe he is only saying or verbalizing na he does not want to get hurt so i would be careful and so i will not try to hurt him... matino naman ako babae... why will i hurt someone who became special to me na?! oh well.. he needs to assess what he really feels... hmmm... andami ko iniisip kasi angtanda ko na... i don't have any time to waste... i don't have time to play around... i wasted too much time with peter.. but like i said i never regret anything... errr... and eto pa... anglayo namin.. :( and angbata nia tlga hahaha oh well bahala na si batman... Jesus ikaw na bhala sakin.. ang masaya pala dun same religion kami hihihi
basta... Jesus let me know what to do.. give me a sign.. :) yoko na makahurt and ayaw ko na din mahurt... ;)